So over the numbers

Counting macros, obsessing over the scale, the size of our clothes I'm over it all. I had this goal of abs for the summer why? I don't know I thought just once before I'm 30 would be rockin if I could sit on the beach with abs. But I soon realized I was obsessing over food. Obsessing over the numbers. The scale that dreaded evil scale. Why do we let this little machine define us? Does it show how much heart each of us has? Does it reflect the beautiful strong people we are? Before I started counting or obsessing over numbers, I liked me, in fact I loved me, I was and am this independent strong woman who can make it in this ruff life solo. That's an achievement in itself. And I always prided myself in that. That I needed no one to stand on my own two feet. But recently I have turned negative toward myself. Getting frustrated more and more with myself. Calling myself fat or bulky more times than I can count. I know I'm not fat by any means but it doesn't stop the instant feeling when you put something on and it doesn't fit right or you look in the mirror and just feel bigger than normal. We are our own worst critics aren't we? So when did I stop loving me? The negativity seeped in so unnoticed at first until it was all around me and all I really talked about. I don't exactly know when I had the wake up call but I stopped the obsessing, stopped the counting of macros and focused on just eating clean whole foods to nourish my body. All I ever wanted was to be healthy and strong, when that became not enough I'll never know, but I am on a new road to be happy with me again. No more counting, no more scale, no more numbers. And when I have a moment when I'm sure something won't fit me right I'll remind myself of what my body can do, how strong I am physically and mentally. I am kind, loyal, honest, optimistic, and an overall genuine person. I believe in looking for the best in anyone and everyone. I look past faults and never judge. I try to see beauty in everything. I have a beautiful soul. I have a lot to be proud of and a lot to offer as a friend, sister, daughter, ect ect. We need to stop putting ourselves down and start embracing our beauty. Because that exactly what we all are... beautiful.

About this Guest Blogger

My name is Christina Curtaccio, I'm very new to the blog world so any tips along the way are welcomed!! I'm a 29 year old woman who, finds the best in everyone and everything. I forgive easily, but never forget. I'm a lover of lots and a hater of nothing. (Hate is such a strong word after-all) I'm a hairstylist, crossfitter, newbie weightlifter, and fur baby mama! I have a 1 year old Pitbull mix named Jax, who is my absolute world! I started out at a local Crossfit gym 2 years ago and never been more motivated by a gym environment! Since then I have moved to another location to focus on some goals I have and haven't been disappointed! I am now getting into Olympic weightlifting and have even competed at my first ever meet! I love trying new things, but most of all I love trying new FOOD! I love to cook and experiment in the kitchen! I created my blog originally to help keep me accountable to get my eating habits back on track after a splurge on holiday food. Then it became a place I could start to throw my thoughts out there and share recipes with my family and friends. I fell off the band wagon because, well life really, but I went through a breakup and needed to focus on me. I'm back and ready to share my love of Hair, Crossfit, Lifting, Health, Life and FOOD!

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