"The Web That We Weave, or Is It Weaved for Us?"
- Hannah
- May 16, 2015
- 5 min read
It’s odd how things can change. They can change in the blink of an eye, snap of a finger, as quickly as it takes for you to inhale and then exhale again… You never realize exactly how good or bad it can be until it happens. But lately, I have been thinking about this a lot. I have it so good in life, I have the perfect boyfriend, I have a wonderful family, and I have the puppy I never could have dreamed of until I met him. I may not be in school, and I may work part-time somewhere that I’m not necessarily happy. But I still have everything I could have ever wanted. My boyfriend and I are planning a trip for December already and it’s only May, and it’s not a small trip, it’s a trip to China of all places, half way around the world with the man of my dreams to see his family. I still lay awake at night and wonder how the hell I got here, and to be honest, it’s incredible to think about. So I’m going to go through a timeline with you (of events that actually matter and pertain to my life as it is right now):
**each name has it's font changed to help you (kinda) follow along**
2010 (this is just a guesstimate, I honestly don’t remember shit): I friended my ex on Facebook (we'll call him Mr. 2010 for now) randomly because I thought he was incredibly good looking.
Also in 2010: I saw Mr. 2010 randomly at a restaurant when out with my sister and brother one night and immediately ran home to Facebook to try and figure out who he was, cause we both noticed each other and it was just obvious… I needed to know who he was.
Still in 2010: We (Mr. 2010 and I) went on a “date” which included lunch and a walk around a community college art gallery while holding hands and his girlfriend (yes, I said girlfriend) was calling him the entire time…
*I wasn’t super happy with her calling, mostly because I was told she was an ex… But oh well, up until then I was used to being lied to so it’s totally cool… I guess… Not really, lying is for dicks… Don’t lie*
2010: He left to go back to training out of state so I knew I would probably never see him again.
2012: The last few months of the year of the apocalypse were the worst few months of my life, but they kind of matter, so I will sum them up real quick: sweet talking, sweet talking, shitty sex, long distance, “I love you,” sweet talking, a kick to the leg, a slap across the face, empty threats, really real threats, “why didn’t you call the cops on me?,” physical violence, “happy new year!”
2013: I finally got my shit together after dating and being broken up with Mr. 2012… He wasn’t the greatest guy and I had a huge problem coming back from everything that he did. But then, Mr. 2010 came back (now Mr. 2013). He Facebook messaged me, sweet-talking his way into my life once again (slowly realizing Facebook ran my love life…). And after coming back from my friend’s graduation party out of state mid-June, we finally got together. We were inseparable whenever he was home. And I met his cousin and his cousin’s girlfriend, his cousin being his best friend, but he honestly doesn’t even matter for this… SO whatever. Anyway, we did the whole long distance, whenever he was home we would hang out with his cousin and his cousin’s girlfriend and that was that. Then the day after Christmas he crushed my heart… So I spent New Years out of town and distanced myself from the only two friends I had made and liked in a long time.
2014: Spent a lot of time by myself until I finally got over the fact that I absolutely loved Mr. 2013’s cousin’s girlfriend and hung out with them despite the fact that Mr. 2013 might actually show up at some point.
June-October 2014: Then I ended up (thinking I was) falling for my (ex) best friend, which turned out to be the worst thing I could have ever done. Not for me, because it taught me a lot, but the worst thing for him… But this is where everything starts to fall into place in a weird kinda way: Without having taken my best friend as my significant other for a short period of time, I would have never ended up in the pet shop where I found my puppy, who is the first greatest thing to ever happen to me in 2014. I realized what true love was and continues to be because when I look into his little brown eyes, I realize just how lucky I am to be his mama. And without my (ex) best friend I wouldn’t have been driving down that road on that specific day and see that specific pet shop… And it was all because he wanted to surprise his dad with his homecoming... It still astounds me..
October 2014: ANYWAY, without Mr. 2013’s cousin’s girlfriend, on October 12th, I wouldn’t have found my now current boyfriend and soul mate. Of course, at that point I didn’t realize exactly how I felt about my current boyfriend. But feelings are feelings and you can’t really do much about that. When you fall in love, you fall in love.
Now I am sitting here writing this from his living room as we sit and watch TV as we do every night, while I watch my puppy sleep soundly on the floor alongside his dog. And I realize that although I got my heart broken like 3-1 billion times along the way, without my two exes I would never have known my current boyfriend or had the opportunity to have met and purchased my puppy who has become my life. Everything happens for a reason, and I have never been so sure of that until now. And to this day, Mr. 2010 turned Mr. 2013’s cousin’s (now ex) girlfriend is my absolute best friend (even though she moved and kinda sucks loljk). So out of my past relationships I got both the loves of my life and my best friend. And I know that timeline was relatively useless and redundant. But it just goes to show how everything is connected whether you sit down and think about it or not. So as things happen, whether they be good or bad, always know that everything will turn out as it should. I can tell you that truthfully.
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